Chemical Dependence

I was almost tempted to call this entry "My Chemical Romance" but I don't think I'm ready to live up to that kind of cheese just yet (not that I don't love me some MCR), so yeah. Today I satisfied my need for a lot of things that I'm chemically dependent on.

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 For instance, I ran out of coffee grinds here at home and had to go to a cafe this afternoon with Keavin because I was getting a headache (I suspected) from not having drank any coffee and damn, that was some good shit. I realized today (not that it was too big a realization lol) that my personality is extremely obsessive/addictive and there are days when I just have to get my fix of whatever it is that I'm craving for (coffee, a cigarette, yogurt). 

 Don't get me wrong, I'm a big fan of restraint as well: I know that you can't get your way all the time and that if you try and get everything you want, every time you want it, you'll end up fucking our life up but you also hold off for too long and you miss out--and then the pain of restraint isn't worth it and kind of defeats itself. I spent today lazing around my house with Keav and watching Duck Dynasty (good show, I swear), then getting some coffee, spending a couple of hours in the bookstore and then heading out for (the very rare) drinkaritas with my girlfriends (and Keav hahaha).

 We hung out at our favorite Pub (with entertaintment that doesn't disappoint--although I've been going there for ages and every time the band doesn't know how to play Don Henley's Heart of the Matter, which I've been requesting for months) and just had a great time catching up. I'm a pretty straight-up rum or wine kind of girl myself, but I must admit: the occasional skinny bitch drink is definitely refreshing.

At the moment, Keav and I are sitting on the living room floor, waiting for Game of Thrones to download. Sleep < Westeros. Aaand there's another battle lost to chemical dependence. I figure, if it's worth it and you don't die, then go do it Goodnight, folks! I hope this made sense. :))

Kinda Bought A House!

So. As some of ya'll might know, I started up a Tumblr that was supposedly for my writing, but I felt limited by the layout and felt slightly uncomfortable with the reblog format with regard to full-length pieces of work, so I've decided on a compromise: I'll be uploading excerpts on Tumblr which will link to the full-length work over at my new online writing home of the same name: thetorturesessions.com is now live! :) I'm not sure why but putting it up feels like I bought a house or something. Weird. 

Anywho, I feel very comfortable with this arrangement and am sticking to posting up new work every Tuesdays & Fridays. I'll also be announcing cool stuff about events I'll be at this June and stuff I'll be selling, then. :D I hope you guys enjoy!

Also, I've decided that while this blog started out as a Fashion/Beauty type endeavor, I don't really have time to do that stuff anymore so I'm going to be instead focusing on events and more personal things. I will take outfit shots and do reviews from time to time but that'll no longer be the major focus of this blog. So. That's it, pancit!

About Getting Inked :)

Son of a bitch, life's been busy--the mundane kind of busy where you feel like nothing's happening but also you seem to not have time for anything, really. I've been writing a lot (of fiction) lately and seeing as how school's starting next week, I'm trying to get in as much work done as I can. But I also feel like I owe this blog a little postage so I thought I'd tell you guys about how it was getting my tattoos done. :D 

  

If you've been following me for a while, then you'll know that I have one other tattoo but that this is the first time I'd ever gone to a legit tattoo shop. The first time, my friend Trizha home-made it (good old prison style) with a sewing needle and calligraphy ink. I was a bit nervous this time around, but also I figured that it couldn't be as bad as being poked for three hours for a 2x2 tattoo. And it wasn't! (yay)

I got inked at Wild Ones in BF (Presiden't s Ave) Paranaque. I decided to go to Wild Ones because the guys who own it are good friends of my brothers' and they did a lot of my brothers' tattoos (and my brothers have a lot of tattoos). 

I don't have a lot of photos taken while getting inked because I got the work done on my forearms, plus obviously a certain amount of stillness is required for someone to draw on your skin with a needle. But luckily my bestfriends came with me (because it's always fun teasing someone when they're nervous hahaha) and so I have a couple of pics c/o of Joy Vidad and Instagram. :))

I was tattooed by Mark aka Batas. :) And the design I got done was the one that I posted about here, except that I had it flipped around with the feather points pointing toward me. 

I found the pre-tattooing process super fascinating: they shave the area being tattooed, then put some deodorant on so that the ink from the stencil transfers (like magic, I swear). They then measure it (not sure why) and let the stencil drawing dry. It took about 45 minutes to get both of these done, total. :)

And that's them, done! :) This was taken right after we finished, so it's a bit reddish still. Now it's gone flat and is healed for the most part. :D

Over-all I was very happy with my tattoo experience and will definitely be heading back to Wild Ones for more work done, soon. If you guys want a great tattoo shop with awesome people running it, then you guys should definitely check this place out.

Also, below are some of the questions I got via e-mail, re: tattoos! 

Opening Up The Torture Sessions

Hey, guys! So. I have been terrible at keeping up this domain. And while that kinda sucks, I think it's alright as instead of updating on here about what I'm reading or what I'm wearing on my face, I've been writing a whole lot more (fiction). In fact, I've started a blog for my work called The Torture Sessions which up until now has been password protected. 

I was talking with my friend Noel on FB chat (because that's the new telebabad, methinks) and he said something that convinced me to take down that password and stop being a pussy (the political correctness of this term will haunt me all of tonight, but that is how I feel: that I never want to be a vagina ). I put up the password because I was hesitant about Tumblr: I always feel extremely iffy about Tumblr because it allows people to reblog such a huge amount of creative content. I just didn't feel comfortable about that and it just seems terribly insincere and contrived to begin interaction that is based on people telling you they like something you wrote. I know that sounds silly, but really--I always find myself questioning the nature of people complimenting other people about this and about that and the manner in which that is done. Anyway, before I get too in my head to be coherent to anyone except my irritatingly schizophrenic self I put the password up because I didn't want to impose my work on anyone who wasn't interested in that kind of thing, which is I feel what a lot of people on Tumblr do. I get very pissed off with people talking as though it's a given that people are interested in their work, because it's one thing to go "Hey, do you wanna look at this thing I'm making?" and quite another to go "Hey, fans what's up?" 

But anyway. Yeah, so I was talking to Noel on Facebook chat the other day and asked him about what he thought about the whole password predicament and he said that the thing about the password was that it would probably alienate a lot of people, especially people who might be interested in the work but who don't know me personally because then they'd have to ask for the password and that would feel like they were entering into a social contract with me by viewing my work. And so I realized that in an effort to weed out the risks of posting up work online, I'd actually be removing a lot of the good that might come with that as well. And also, while trying to avoid conceit and shit like that, the password actual comes off way more conceited than just posting up work. 

So. There. I've currently removed a lot of the work I put on there and will be uploading it again in photo form, with a link to a downloadable PDF. :) I'll be putting up two works of small fiction every week, on Tuesdays and Fridays. So. Yeah! I hope you guys will enjoy that. And I'll also try (I swear) and keep this bit of cyberspace in tact. :D I really want to get back into writing some permutation of the Brightside Entries daily, again. So. I'll figure that out. Goodnight!

Tattoo Ideas

Because I just realized that I'm no longer an adolescent, I've decided to finally get myself a legit tattoo. Not to say that the one I have (very hardly labored over by my dear Trizha) isn't legit, but you know what I mean--I feel like it's high time I get something well thought through and not done impulsively (although this isn't to say that I don't still love the sexy bear on my decolletage area, who was born out of sheer impulse and reckless impetuous). :) 

So two Mondays from now, on May 13th I'm going to get this little pretty done at Wild Ones which is an awesome tattoo parlor run by a couple of my brother's friends, Mark aka Batas and Eric. :D I really love the stuff they've done (which you can see on their site) and I figured that this design would be perfect because at this point in my life, a quill is something I'm sure there will be no way, ever for me to regret. Although in general, there aren't a lot of things that I regret anyway.

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I've also decided to begin "investing in my future" and planning out this whole body decoration shenanigan. I spent yesterday looking for different designs and stuff that really appeal to me. :D I've also started a Tattoo Ideas board on Pinterest! So. Yeah. I will get back to writing now. :))